The smile faltered and then stubbornly was plastered back on as if it had never left.
“I’m not naive,” he said simply, as he cut a sigil into a bay leaf with his fingernails, watched the magic flare, and then put it on his tongue. He instantly felt better, and he sighed a little before starting on the next.
“I never really though we were actually going to have something, Mingyu, I was always prepared to let you go, or watch you go.”
The second bay leaf complete, it flared with magic, and he put it into his mouth too. It was getting harder to keep the smile up but he tried.
“I don’t believe in the best of people because it’s easy. It isn’t. People are assholes nearly all the time. Usually out of ignorance or fear, but they’re still assholes. You can tell me what a horrible person you are all you want, but you’re still just a person. No better or worse than anyone else. You still have the capability to make your own decisions.”
He felt a lot more clear headed, now, and his eyes were fixed on his fingers as they prepared a third and final bay leaf.
“I have no doubt you’ve done a lot worse than what I’ve seen. And I have no doubt that it haunts you, what you’ve become. For his sake. For mine. But I meant what I said before.”
He finished the leaf and broke it in two, offering one half to Mingyu like he did on the night they met.
“You don’t take pleasure in it. You don’t look happy about it. You’re not evil you’re just desperate. Even if I didn’t feel the way I do, I’m still your friend. Why wouldn’t I want to help you?”
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“I’m not naive,” he said simply, as he cut a sigil into a bay leaf with his fingernails, watched the magic flare, and then put it on his tongue. He instantly felt better, and he sighed a little before starting on the next.
“I never really though we were actually going to have something, Mingyu, I was always prepared to let you go, or watch you go.”
The second bay leaf complete, it flared with magic, and he put it into his mouth too. It was getting harder to keep the smile up but he tried.
“I don’t believe in the best of people because it’s easy. It isn’t. People are assholes nearly all the time. Usually out of ignorance or fear, but they’re still assholes. You can tell me what a horrible person you are all you want, but you’re still just a person. No better or worse than anyone else. You still have the capability to make your own decisions.”
He felt a lot more clear headed, now, and his eyes were fixed on his fingers as they prepared a third and final bay leaf.
“I have no doubt you’ve done a lot worse than what I’ve seen. And I have no doubt that it haunts you, what you’ve become. For his sake. For mine. But I meant what I said before.”
He finished the leaf and broke it in two, offering one half to Mingyu like he did on the night they met.
“You don’t take pleasure in it. You don’t look happy about it. You’re not evil you’re just desperate. Even if I didn’t feel the way I do, I’m still your friend. Why wouldn’t I want to help you?”