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"Fox" ([personal profile] foxable) wrote2020-05-12 02:07 pm

Open RP Post

Will make this pretty later
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[personal profile] descendency 2020-06-08 03:56 am (UTC)(link)
...yeah, that's more along the lines of what he thought. He can't even begin to guess which one of his projects Fox is having a problem with, because at a guess he'd say all of them, so he heaves out a sigh as he mops a hand over his face, moving over to see what it is Fox has in his hands.

"Told you, you wouldn't like it."
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[personal profile] descendency 2020-06-08 04:20 am (UTC)(link)
At that question, Mingyu was silent for a long while. At first, he'd done it because he'd hoped to make progress here, for if and when he returned to the place where he still needed to get Fox back. But after learning he would retain nothing of his time here, why did he⁠—

"...I don't know what else to do with myself," he confessed quietly, gaze dropping to the floor.

"It's who I am now. It's almost all I am anymore. I'm nothing without you. Just this."
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[personal profile] descendency 2020-06-08 04:38 am (UTC)(link)
'People would do worse than kill for what you do, Huli,' Mingyu thought to himself but did not voice, swallowing hard against the lump in his throat.

"...not the magic. It's not the magic that's who I am, it's... the method. The habits I made, what I do. Day in, day out. This is me now," he clarified softly instead, biting down on his lip.

"Of course it's not what I want, I just... It's all I really know anymore."
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[personal profile] descendency 2020-06-08 11:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Mingyu smiled, quiet and grieved, throat so tight he nearly couldn't breathe.

"I used to think about that all the time," he whispered, gaze distant, half talking to himself. "In the beginning, when I first started learning, when it was all new and... it didn't yet carry all this terrible weight."

Shutting his eyes, he sighed.

"I thought of how excited you'd be at what I picked up. How happy. How proud. Every time I broke through some kind of ceiling, I'd think⁠— 'He'll be so thrilled.'"

Eyes opening once more, he fixed his gaze on Fox again.

"...would you believe I forgot? I forgot all about it. About those feelings. That you'd even be interested in all. I forgot."

He whispered those last words to himself, half in disbelief, struck by the notion all over again as he cast Fox a fragile, horrified look.

"I forgot."

Forgot the very essence of Fox's being.

He forgot.

"God⁠—"

Twisting a hand in his own hair, he hunched over himself, trying to breath, choking on a sudden sob. The loss washed over him and he sank down to his knees right there on the floor.

"It hasn't even⁠— been that long, how did I⁠—"
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[personal profile] descendency 2020-06-09 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
Mingyu was still only half listening, overcome by the notion he could leave this place and remember none of this, go back to his life as he was, searching for a man who was probably dead.

It hadn't even been a year, and he'd already forgotten this much.

How much longer before he lost everything, lost all the parts of Fox in his life beyond recognition? He'd been aware for some time now that he'd been losing Fox in pieces, lost his warmth and his presence and his noisy, boisterous existence, but not the basic fundamental things.

He tried to picture it. The entire rest of his life, losing Fox again and again, remembering him in snatches, in jagged pieces, only to lose them again.

Breathing hard, he forced down the urge to sob, to scream, and tried instead to focus on Fox's voice.

'We're both here, and we're okay.'

Were they?

They had to be. He had to be. This was all they had, and Mingyu couldn't waste it.

So he took in a few shaky breaths, nodding, trying not to cling as tightly to Fox as he wanted to.

"...yeah," he managed, burying his face in Fox's shoulder as he had grown into the habit of doing, centering himself breathing Fox in. "Yeah. We're here. We'll be okay. I'll find my way back. Just... just bear with me."