[ mingyu commented this softly, looking over the drop in fox's expression, that shadow of worry overcasting his smile. he reached out when fox drew near, pulling him under the hot shower spray to warm that chilled skin. ]
What is it?
[ rather than follow fox's line of teasing, mingyu ran his hands through fox's hair, leaning in to claim another brief kiss as he waited for an answer. ]
[ Fox shook his head, accidentally sending flecks of spray out from his tousled hair. ]
Nah, not - you didn't say anything wrong. I don't know. I just don't like that I worry you that much.
[ He frowned, stepping a little further back into the water to feel it drench through his hair before speaking again. ]
I don't blame you for not trusting me to want to be here, and I don't think anyone else would blame you either, but... I do want to be here, Mingyu. I didn't lie to you. I'm here because I want to be here, alright?
[ mingyu blinked, then frowned as well, expression shifting from confusion to embarrassment to guilt. he gave a hard swallow, then put his arms around fox's waist to draw him in, stepping closer as well to keep them beneath the water. ]
...it's not a reflection on you. I've worried all my life, about everything. Even when my parents were around, I still... Always imagined the worst happening, and—
[ he gave a tight smile and hard swallow. ]
I've worried more since the worst did happen, with them. It's nothing you're doing specifically, Huli. It's just... life. It's who I am, what I am in society. And perhaps a little of what you are in society, but I don't think there's anyone you could be that wouldn't still have me worrying.
[ touching fox's cheek, he fixed him with an apologetic look. ]
I know you want to be here. Me worrying is... just an occupational hazard of you meaning something to me.
Will you forgive me if that takes a little adjusting to? [ a nervous laugh escaped mingyu at that, burying his face briefly against fox's damp, bare shoulder. ]
I do believe you. I'm just... having a little trouble believing my own good fortune, I think. I keep... waiting for the other shoe to drop. The better this gets, the more uneasy I get.
[ lifting his head again, mingyu offered fox a shy, almost apprehensive sort of smile. ]
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[ mingyu commented this softly, looking over the drop in fox's expression, that shadow of worry overcasting his smile. he reached out when fox drew near, pulling him under the hot shower spray to warm that chilled skin. ]
What is it?
[ rather than follow fox's line of teasing, mingyu ran his hands through fox's hair, leaning in to claim another brief kiss as he waited for an answer. ]
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Nah, not - you didn't say anything wrong. I don't know. I just don't like that I worry you that much.
[ He frowned, stepping a little further back into the water to feel it drench through his hair before speaking again. ]
I don't blame you for not trusting me to want to be here, and I don't think anyone else would blame you either, but... I do want to be here, Mingyu. I didn't lie to you. I'm here because I want to be here, alright?
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...it's not a reflection on you. I've worried all my life, about everything. Even when my parents were around, I still... Always imagined the worst happening, and—
[ he gave a tight smile and hard swallow. ]
I've worried more since the worst did happen, with them. It's nothing you're doing specifically, Huli. It's just... life. It's who I am, what I am in society. And perhaps a little of what you are in society, but I don't think there's anyone you could be that wouldn't still have me worrying.
[ touching fox's cheek, he fixed him with an apologetic look. ]
I know you want to be here. Me worrying is... just an occupational hazard of you meaning something to me.
[ a pause. ]
...meaning everything to me.
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You can worry about whatever you want, as long as you believe you mean everything to me too.
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I do believe you. I'm just... having a little trouble believing my own good fortune, I think. I keep... waiting for the other shoe to drop. The better this gets, the more uneasy I get.
[ lifting his head again, mingyu offered fox a shy, almost apprehensive sort of smile. ]
You're the best thing that's ever happened to me.
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[ He smiled back, warmly despite having to blink the water back. ]
But if I’m the best thing to ever happen to you, honestly that’s a pretty good legacy.
[ He leaned up for another kiss before taking Mingyu’s hands. ]
Come on. No more brooding. Help me scrub up so when I drag you back to bed you won’t complain that I smell like burnt hair.