With the idea of losing me? [ He asked, genuinely curious. ] or the idea that I’d leave if you admitted you wanted me to stay? [ He pressed another kiss to Mingyu’s mouth, then pulled away, heading for the bathroom and pulling off his sodden shirt. ]
I mean, I was expecting you to pretend to give me the cold shoulder for a little while, at least, so I’m not complaining about the state of preparedness.
...mm, all of it, I guess. But I've been worried about the first bit for a while, even when I first made the plan to surprise you in the shower, so maybe more the latter.
[ padding after fox to the bathroom, mingyu grabs them some clean towels along the way, then steps past fox while fox is undressing to run the shower hot. as he did that, a thought occurred to him and he turned to fox again, grinning faintly. ]
—you thought I could last against your charms, huh? 'At least a little while' is pretty generous. You losing faith in your abilities, Huli?
I figured you were slowly building up an immunity, [ He teased quietly, but his smile wasn't quite as wide as it had been before, a tinge of worry slipped into it instead. But he finishes stripping, folding the sodden clothes over the edge of the sink and then stepping up to join Mingyu. ]
I don't mind a little role play when you want to pretend to be coy.
[ mingyu commented this softly, looking over the drop in fox's expression, that shadow of worry overcasting his smile. he reached out when fox drew near, pulling him under the hot shower spray to warm that chilled skin. ]
What is it?
[ rather than follow fox's line of teasing, mingyu ran his hands through fox's hair, leaning in to claim another brief kiss as he waited for an answer. ]
[ Fox shook his head, accidentally sending flecks of spray out from his tousled hair. ]
Nah, not - you didn't say anything wrong. I don't know. I just don't like that I worry you that much.
[ He frowned, stepping a little further back into the water to feel it drench through his hair before speaking again. ]
I don't blame you for not trusting me to want to be here, and I don't think anyone else would blame you either, but... I do want to be here, Mingyu. I didn't lie to you. I'm here because I want to be here, alright?
[ mingyu blinked, then frowned as well, expression shifting from confusion to embarrassment to guilt. he gave a hard swallow, then put his arms around fox's waist to draw him in, stepping closer as well to keep them beneath the water. ]
...it's not a reflection on you. I've worried all my life, about everything. Even when my parents were around, I still... Always imagined the worst happening, and—
[ he gave a tight smile and hard swallow. ]
I've worried more since the worst did happen, with them. It's nothing you're doing specifically, Huli. It's just... life. It's who I am, what I am in society. And perhaps a little of what you are in society, but I don't think there's anyone you could be that wouldn't still have me worrying.
[ touching fox's cheek, he fixed him with an apologetic look. ]
I know you want to be here. Me worrying is... just an occupational hazard of you meaning something to me.
Will you forgive me if that takes a little adjusting to? [ a nervous laugh escaped mingyu at that, burying his face briefly against fox's damp, bare shoulder. ]
I do believe you. I'm just... having a little trouble believing my own good fortune, I think. I keep... waiting for the other shoe to drop. The better this gets, the more uneasy I get.
[ lifting his head again, mingyu offered fox a shy, almost apprehensive sort of smile. ]
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I mean, I was expecting you to pretend to give me the cold shoulder for a little while, at least, so I’m not complaining about the state of preparedness.
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[ padding after fox to the bathroom, mingyu grabs them some clean towels along the way, then steps past fox while fox is undressing to run the shower hot. as he did that, a thought occurred to him and he turned to fox again, grinning faintly. ]
—you thought I could last against your charms, huh? 'At least a little while' is pretty generous. You losing faith in your abilities, Huli?
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I don't mind a little role play when you want to pretend to be coy.
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[ mingyu commented this softly, looking over the drop in fox's expression, that shadow of worry overcasting his smile. he reached out when fox drew near, pulling him under the hot shower spray to warm that chilled skin. ]
What is it?
[ rather than follow fox's line of teasing, mingyu ran his hands through fox's hair, leaning in to claim another brief kiss as he waited for an answer. ]
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Nah, not - you didn't say anything wrong. I don't know. I just don't like that I worry you that much.
[ He frowned, stepping a little further back into the water to feel it drench through his hair before speaking again. ]
I don't blame you for not trusting me to want to be here, and I don't think anyone else would blame you either, but... I do want to be here, Mingyu. I didn't lie to you. I'm here because I want to be here, alright?
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...it's not a reflection on you. I've worried all my life, about everything. Even when my parents were around, I still... Always imagined the worst happening, and—
[ he gave a tight smile and hard swallow. ]
I've worried more since the worst did happen, with them. It's nothing you're doing specifically, Huli. It's just... life. It's who I am, what I am in society. And perhaps a little of what you are in society, but I don't think there's anyone you could be that wouldn't still have me worrying.
[ touching fox's cheek, he fixed him with an apologetic look. ]
I know you want to be here. Me worrying is... just an occupational hazard of you meaning something to me.
[ a pause. ]
...meaning everything to me.
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You can worry about whatever you want, as long as you believe you mean everything to me too.
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I do believe you. I'm just... having a little trouble believing my own good fortune, I think. I keep... waiting for the other shoe to drop. The better this gets, the more uneasy I get.
[ lifting his head again, mingyu offered fox a shy, almost apprehensive sort of smile. ]
You're the best thing that's ever happened to me.
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[ He smiled back, warmly despite having to blink the water back. ]
But if I’m the best thing to ever happen to you, honestly that’s a pretty good legacy.
[ He leaned up for another kiss before taking Mingyu’s hands. ]
Come on. No more brooding. Help me scrub up so when I drag you back to bed you won’t complain that I smell like burnt hair.