Open RP Post

[foxable]

Will make this pretty later

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[foxable]

what kind of dreams?

[descendency]

i dont remember them well
but you're gone
and i
i don't know where
or why
or how
and then i wake up, and the bed's empty, and i can't sleep
sorry
it sounds stupid
i didn't want you to worry

[foxable]

no it’s not stupid

next time if i can’t sleep i’ll stay in the room, okay?

i guess i’m just not really used to having somewhere i’m expected to be, yet

[descendency]

promise?
i've actually slept better since you've been coming over
having you next to me... makes it feel like home
instead of just somewhere i'm living

[foxable]

[ there’s another pause ]

you didn’t think your place was your home before?

[descendency]

mm
not really
i was always by myself

[foxable]

what about when your parents were sill around

[descendency]

i grew up on sullivan street
we had a little house
that was home
this is just an apartment

[foxable]

oh


well

it’s the most home i’ve ever had

[descendency]

huli...
huli
if it
if you


come home

[foxable]

i’m like a block away

you know only one of those was a complete thought right

[descendency]

i'm just glad
i think i was a little scared
that it only felt like home to me
and if i talked about it
you'd go away

[foxable]

i know i come off as commitment phobic but i’m not that bad, am i?

[descendency]

it's not just you it's me too
i lose things
it's what i do

[foxable]

well you’re not going to lose me

especially not for saying that this feels like home


balcony

[descendency]

[ all ambitions of tempting fox by being naked in the shower forgotten, mingyu hurries out into the living room, out to the balcony, flinging it open to drag fox into his arms to kiss deeply, wet and singed and all. ]

[foxable]

[ He doesn’t have time to get even a syllable past his lips before Mingyu is dragging him in for a kiss, his sodden clothes pressing up against bare skin. The force of it was somewhat surprising, but Fox wasn’t complaining. He slipped arms around Mingyu’s waist and pulled him closer, leaning up to deepen the kiss.

He only broke it when he needed to breathe. ]

You’re going to get cold, [ He murmured. ] And you’re probably giving the people in the building opposite an amazing show.

[descendency]

[ there came no reply from mingyu, instead dragging fox inside as he gave them both a scant few seconds to breathe, then reclaimed fox's lips in another desperate kiss. he walked backwards into the house, making sure fox follows, getting halfway down the hall to the bathroom before he paused also, breathing hard. he picked up both of fox's hands in his own, squeezing them tight. ]

I love you.

I love you so much it scares me. I love you so much it doesn't even matter that I'm scared.

Thank you for coming home.

[foxable]

[ Fox gave him an apologetic look and then squeezed his hands. ]

Hey. Hey, come on. I'm okay. I wasn't not going to come back. I said I'd stay here, didn't I?

I'm not going to take off on you, alright?

I love you too. You don't have to be scared, okay?

[descendency]

No, it's⁠— It's not that kind of scared. I mean, I worry about that sometimes, but.

[ mingyu smiled, aching and warm. he kissed fox again, most softly this time, less demanding. ]

...I'm afraid most of the time, of all kinds of things. Mostly having things to lose. So I⁠— Everything I've ever done is to feel safe. The traps, the public persona, the money, all of it. It's never worked. But I can't... not chase it, feeling safe. Secure.

[ drawing in a tight, anxious breath, mingyu let it out again in a quiet laugh, the sound grieved but somehow tender, fond. ]

Lately, more and more, it feels like⁠— It feels like every step I take towards you is farther from that place, but I want this, right here, want you so badly I don't care.

They can have it all. Take it all.

I don't care.

As long as I have you.

[foxable]

[ Fox raised his hands, gently cupping Mingyu’s face, letting go of the other man’s hands for a moment. ]

Mingyu...Being with me definitely isn’t safe, I’ll admit that. But nothing is. At least you can feel secure in the fact that I’d do anything to keep you happy and whole, yeah?

But let’s not tempt fate by saying they can take everything else, huh? You’re throwing poor dutiful Mr. Wiggles under the bus.

[descendency]

...sometimes I wonder if the act of wanting someone, something alone is tempting fate, for me.

[ at this, mingyu gave a thick swallow, then pressed on. ]

But I don't care, not when it comes to you. [ sighing, he slipped his arms around fox's waist, pulled him in, didn't even shiver from the cold. ]

Besides, I think you're missing the point a bit. It's not that I don't think I'm safe with you. I worry I might chase you off by accident, but.

It's you who's not safe with me, Huli.

[foxable]

[ Fox sighed, giving Mingyu a slightly bemused look, then leaned up and pressed a kiss to the edge of his mouth. ]

I'm safer with you than I have been in years, so, I think I'll take it over the alternative, if that's alright with you.

Come on. I was told I had to shower.

[descendency]

I hope so.

[ murmuring this, mingyu let the topic drop for the moment as it wouldn't serve either of them to keep dwelling on mingyu's anxieties. it was early, they were tired, and there was nothing that could be said that would change anything today.

fox wanted to be with him, wanted to stay with him. that was enough. it was more than enough. it was everything. ]

...I meant to have the shower ready for you, [ mingyu mentioned, laughing softly. ] And me, too. Sorry for getting preoccupied.

[foxable]

With the idea of losing me? [ He asked, genuinely curious. ] or the idea that I’d leave if you admitted you wanted me to stay? [ He pressed another kiss to Mingyu’s mouth, then pulled away, heading for the bathroom and pulling off his sodden shirt. ]

I mean, I was expecting you to pretend to give me the cold shoulder for a little while, at least, so I’m not complaining about the state of preparedness.